toloooongggggg

nyilu nya rs bila ati disakiti...x tertanggung rs bila kebahagiaan hanya sementara...

awkward feeling

aduhhh....what are the right thing that I should do??? Yesterday I decide to make thing easier...live the life that we used to. But things get difficult, I wonder it is how Allah want to test my mental, it hard since i'm not strong enough to being tested like that.

me wait for her at home, with hope that we can have our dinner together, yup right, after a month not cook, planning to discuss about tomorrow activity during dinner. keep looking at the clock every seconds, nervous, at 1600 I decide to take bath for the third time hahaha just to get busy. 1606 my phone beep..SMS...my heart beep go fast... hah kan......she go out with her collegues...kuar jab KLCC..xde maknanya kejab kalau dah KLCC...sabar la wahai hati...dugaan ni...sabar ea xpe la dinner lambat sikit...again wait till 1900...xde pun...perut bunyi2 ni...1746 can't hold anymore...tebalkan la muka, throw away my own ego, just ask...text her, sms dipandang sepi....makan la daku seorang diri...show up after 2000... siap offer nak kuar... kepala ko... dah nak kul 9pm pun... by the time smp mall kedai pun dah nak tutup..apa dahhhh...kot ya pun nak cover takkan tak pikir cara lain kottttt...

today wake up early do laundry and make some breakfast bagai...with hope nanti boleh kuar awal spend more time together...hampeh...Allah menguji ku lagi..demi mengembalikan suasana mcm dulu2, aku tebalkan muka lagi tanya je la ya tak? memek muka dia, ya Allah, sabo je la, dia lupa kot.. tetiba dia ubah rentak.. jadi macam dulu.. hah kan.. tapi hati ku dah tercuit weh..sabar ya hati, sabar, bukan senang untuk kembali jadi macam dulu...

aku tenangkan hati, igt balik niat aku semalam, aku baring sebelah dia, decide nak g tgk movie laaa... tgh pk2 tetiba dpt SMS psl tiket movie..yeay!!! Allah merestui...check jab psl tiket free ni...usha skali psl citer Life of Pi...tetiba terpk.. ntah ntah semalam lmbt tu sbb tgk movie kot...baik tanya sblm hati ku sakit...aduh peritnya... bila tanya pun sakit gak rupanya...

Ya Allah! kenapa begini berat dugaan mu terhadap kami...bantulah kami Ya Allah..moga hari ni lancar seperti yang diharapkan...aminnnnnnn

I aint nobody

for the first time ever... i'm begging you...being ignore.... hurt me deep inside...and this sad moment really wake me up ... me are not somebody in her life...dont care how much i love her, how much i care about her & herlife..the fact that I ain't nobody really really do make my heart broken